Some say love is for fools. Others say it's that feeling you get when you meet that special someone. I used to think both were right. Because they tie into each other. When you feel that emotion some say is love, you feel like a fool for believing in something beyond normal. Beyond you. But now, i can't bring myself to believing in love at all.
Usually, between the ages of 12 and 20, people go through 'changes' that somehow expands their understanding. Honestly, we're being naive. We forget about probability. We just push and push to try to make things happen. If you think about it, it's not emotional at all. Its physical. The usual 'deprivation of sleep' and 'heartache'. I know what you're probably thinking- oh come on! But it's real! That pain in you're chest when you know you cant have someone. That time you waste staying up because you want them so badly. It's heart breaking. It's heart breaking until you're hearts finally broken.
Next, the aftershock. Like the next earthquake after the killer. Also known as side effects. Sure, listen to screamo or something heartbreaking probably by Taylor Swift. Starve or over-eat, Hide the tears or belt them out. Accept or turn-down the pain. Fake the smile or admit something's wrong. You'll be lying either way- because more than just 'something' is wrong.
Lastly, the memory. It's hard burning away parts of you that have been written down on lined paper. But it sucks even more when you realize the time wasted. You crawl back into normal life- lonely and solemn. But then when you think you're okay, you're burnt away past repeats itself. Then, we realize that the 'emotional feeling' we call love, really is only a routine.
